So I need to take a moment to tell you about my ride home from Jen's. Jen gave me a box of chocolate covered strawberries to indulge in for my anniversary which is tomorrow. Jake asked me what my anniversary meant. I told him about it and he got very sad. He said he was sad because he didn't get me anything and that he couldn't make me a card. He didn't want to ask me for help because then I would see it. It was really really sweet.
As I drove, I thought about 9 years and how much I miss Lee. It isn't an anniversary when the one person you love with all your heart isn't here to celebrate with. Thank God I had my sunglasses on....
Then as if that wasn't enough to bring on the waterworks..I guess today really hit home for me. Today was the last Charlton/Castana playdate. While we were there, Jen said something to me that struck a chord. She said, "It would be great if our children could grow-up together." It would be great and I truly wish our life could be that simple. However, I know someday it will be, just not yet.
September 1st has so much meaning. We have made it 9 years, ups and downs, sickness and health, together and far apart. And ironically, I never thought I would be married to a military man, but if it wasn't for the Army I would never have met all the amazing friends I have. So while it stinks that our kids won't grow up together, if it wasn't for the Army we would have never met. It is very bittersweet. Having this last play date of the summer was really really sad for me. I cry when I think about leaving here and our best friends and it breaks my heart. I know our children will not grow up together, but they will grow up always knowing each other. We will always be connected.
So, even though 13 years ago when I met Lee I never expected to be a military wife, I have embraced this life and all that it has brought to me. Now, I just want it to bring me some family time. I miss my husband, my best friend, my confidant, and the love of my life. I can't wait for you to come home so we can celebrate this wondeful life we have made together. Thank you for 9 fabulous years!
Happy Anniversary and cheers to many more!!
PS--My awesome husband sent me beautiful flowers. I was so confused on how he did it being that he has no money over there. He actually put them on lay-away from last year knowing he would be away. He is so thoughtful..thank you!